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Foot Prints…

Originally posted on: Dec 19, 2008

With every step that I take towards my today, I push my yesterday a step behind. Sometimes I am careless about where I am keeping my foot and others I take each step with care leaving my footprints on the lane of time. Every now and then I stop, to look back and I see pair of different footprints beside mine. One pair disappears and other emerges making a beautiful pattern on the heart of mine.  I look back sometime with the vision blurred with tears from the painful memories or often with a smile but I keep walking leaving my footprints on the lane of time.

 

Blabbering…

Originally posted on: Dec 18, 2008

I don’t trust people blindly, I trust them intuitively. I know I have made mistakes in the past doing the same however the success rate has been high enough to keep me taking the same road over and over again.

Where the day takes you!!

Originally posted on: Dec 17, 2008

As a child I have been afraid of winters for the chill they bring and as I grew up  my belief got stronger as all the major events happened in my life in winters. Getting the first job, first crush, first heart break, first time moving out of town to live all by my own, first encounter with life and death. But now when I look back I find winters exciting as they bring a new challenge every time. This year again I  have relocated, actually not just relocated it has brought a big change in my life as from past 6 years i have always worked in night shifts and now i am in a day job. however i wonder how do people manage to wake up early, travel 2 hours, reach office, work till late evening, take even longer time to reach back home… and still manage to socialize. i am finding it hard.. Hope I can accommodate all my extra useless activities in all these worldly important chores.   

“and a week after writing this I broke my leg, sigh! “L

Blabbering

Originally posted on: Sep 29, 2008

Today again I wish to die,

My soul wants to be free and fly..

I pray not to be born again,

To hurt and be hurt for the love sake.

With all the choices you make

Some are happy and the others cry,

These choices,

These cruel choices…

I don’t want to lose again,

I don’t even want to try.

Today again I wish to die,

My soul wants to be free and fly..

Sweet Chilies

Originally posted on: Jun 24, 2008

I sit by the window,

Sipping my tea…

Every day I dream of the day,

When u were with me…

I imagine having endless talks,

When really we had so little to say…

 You hurt me so much,

Still I expect you to kiss my pain away,

Thoughts of you make me smile…

Thinking of you I cry.

These sweet chili like memories have kept me going so far,

These sweet chili like memories will make me die… 

Originally posted on: Jun 3, 2008

Blabbering…

On a rusty shelf…

There lay some left over from the past Christmas:

Some decorative lights…  Dirty socks…  and a dried wreath.

I look deeper…

Ponder some more in the closet of past…

I think of Christmas, the shopping and the merry times…

Then I think of you… I think of us… and that sudden death…

There was a bell that you brought me…

There it is in the corner …

It doesn’t ring no more…

A silent bell…

It has lost its heart. 


I call his name…

……, Peas is being torn,

Please help…

Please save……

I don’t want to die again,

I don’t want to be born.


Ah! Home Sweet home,

I sigh!

But where is he? What became of him?? Did he make it???

I can’t stop wondering…

I don’t know why!


The distance between life and death is just 2 steps deep,

I need to die some more and you need to wake up from that sleep

Originally posted on: May 30, 2008

Lost in time…

A little girl,

Sitting on the rock… in a red frock…

Did I notice her first or the color of her dress??

Did it even matter that her hair were all mess??

I looked at her face again, searching for a sign…

Something was strange…

What did I see??

I suddenly felt a rush in my heart…

She had a face…

Face of mine…

I looked around to gather my surroundings…

Where was I and looking at who??

I was looking at nothingness…

I was lost in time.   

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When I speak I feel I am bluffing,

I don’t trust my words no more,

Each sound that I make adds to the list of lies…

My throat feels soar.

There is a jolly joker on the stage…

He is laughing…

I wonder why…

I can still see the un-slept nights in his eyes…

The wetness on his pillow would tell u that he cried…

Nonetheless he is laughing…

I wonder why…

Originally posted on: Apr 30, 2008

  • I look in the mirror and a stranger shouts back “such waste of life.”
  • Are we still living in the same age of barter system, where one gets loved for the things he can offer?

Originally posted on: Apr 19, 2008

Fatal Attraction

My vision was blurry as I was walking towards you. I knew my each step taken cannot be reversed and I am heading towards destruction but sheer attraction of you barred my sanity to take control. So here I am, looking in your eyes… waiting for you to take me, you can make it slow and painful… you can make it as fast as light. My silent killer, I stand here to be sacrificed… to die… Please take my breath away!!

My loving prey

I am a parasite; I have been living on your blood for too long. Before you could ever realize I have sucked the life out of you and now it’s time to move on. But as a good (uninvited) guest that I was I thought of letting you know that you were the best prey I have ever had. I will miss you till you get the strength and life enough to attract me again. 

Originally posted on: Dec 6, 2007

Burning

Don’t bother by what I say,

I am prisoner of my own desires,

Dreams…

That are no longer inviting valleys…

Rather dead dark alleys.

I scream to get some help

But who can save you,

From self set fire….
Pain

Pain

this Pain….

It never seems to end.

Things are still the same….

My Blood and Your Heart

They are never going to blend!

Silent Screams!!

You hurt… 

You cry

You suffer..

You die

But when tears seize to come..

Death refuses to take you…

You hurt…

You suffer…

You scream..

All you get is silence..

More silence…

Silent screams are never heard…

It’s a silence you hear with a storm…

A storm….

That’s never to come.

 

??

My heart is sinking…

In my own chest??

Did I choke,

In my own breath??

Am dying,

Was destined to…

 But did I die my own death??

Sadness

Underneath all these happy faces we have a sadness that resides…

Sadness born not out of failures but it’s a state of mind…

That does not make us depressed people,

Only that it makes us value a smile…

Faith

I am fighter…I know…Can go on struggling…

Fighting… Dying …But for what??For whom??Losing cause is bad enough…But losing faith… …Haven’t learned to handle that yet!

Road

Originally posted on: Dec 5, 2007

Your hand in mine…

As we walk on the lane of time.

With every step we know little more,

As we go along the road we grow,

Your hand in mine…

As we walk on the lane of time.

Walking and laughing,

Stumbling and falling,

 With every step we know little more,

As we go along the road we grow,

Your hand in mine…

As we walk on the lane of time.

Strange it may seem,

The darkness of the road is leading you and me,

Where it will take us, we still don’t know,

With every step we will know little more

As we go along the road, we grow,

Your hand in mine…

As we walk on the lane of time.

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